desperation – ilekso

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August 29, 2020desperation, poetryLeave a Comment

he said i looked at him
like he was my only one
i looked at him
like he was someone
maybe no one has before

.fear.

October 6, 2017October 6, 2017desperation, poetryLeave a Comment

i do not fear you falling
with another
into bed
i fear you falling
with another
into love

in july of 1877, a man named L.L. Zamenhof created a language called Esperanto, which translates to “one who hopes”. he wished to bring those from different countries together and create peace among them. during the first world war, a territory composed of many Esperanto speakers was referred to as “an oasis in a desert of destruction.”

in the peaceful language of Esperanto, ilekso means holly. i stumbled upon Esperanto a few years ago while translating my name into different languages, as one may do when desperately trying to create a new username for social media. the history and the meaning behind the language fit seamlessly with my beliefs, my goals, and my practices. and so my new identity was born.

i have come to realize that my purpose in this world is to care for others and to create my own sort of oasis, a space that is safe for everyone to express themselves freely and feel significant in their own lives. i am consumed each day by the joy, love, and beauty in the world and i am determined to spend my life spreading it around to anyone who needs it.

i am ilekso.