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  • a welcome and a thank you

    It’s been a few days since I shared my first post, along with the poems that I have written thus far.  In the first 24 hours, I had about 30 visitors and over 100 views, which was way more than I anticipated.  I thought maybe one or two would stumble onto my site from the tags on my poems and that I would have a few more views from friends that I chose to share this creation with.  I am so excited to begin this journey and I am challenging myself to post once a day.  Knowing myself, I will likely fail this challenge almost immediately, but I would like to share my thoughts regularly in order to keep track of things and have something to reflect on in the future.  I would like to officially welcome you to my world, and thank you for taking the time read any words that are shared here.

  • .guilt.

    a fraction of a second
    is already enough
    is already too much
    i wish the thoughts
    would run away
    as i attempt to drive them out
    but they don’t
    they stay
    and i’m supposed to take comfort
    in the fact
    that your suffering is complete
    that you always loved me
    that i have your eyes
    but now your work…
    is mine

  • .love.

    you have seen the way
    i love all things
    admire
    their truth and their fight
    adore
    their colors and their light
    so you know that when
    i say it to you
    there is nothing more true
    i love you

  • .feeling.

    there’s this feeling i get
    when i look at the sun
    or the moon
    the mountains across the lake
    the light on your face
    there’s this feeling i get
    when i share something about myself
    or know that i am understood
    accomplish something great
    hear you say my name
    each moment is different
    yet somehow
    the same
    i have a lot of feelings
    because i feel everything

  • .good. x .truth.

    it’s so beautiful when
    you’re in front of someone and you think
    i’m in front of you and i’m myself
    we are here
    we are together
    we are oK
    i never want to keep my mind from your view
    but this time it’s about you and i’m scared so
    i do
    i lie
    as i say
    yeah…
    good to see you too
    because what i’m trying to convey
    is that it’s more than good
    to tell you the truth
    it’s everything

  • .good. x .lie.

    it’s so beautiful when
    you’re in front of me
    i’m in front of you
    we listen
    we laugh
    we love
    i never want to leave
    but as always
    i do
    we lie
    as we say
    good to see you again
    yeah…
    good to see you too

  • .visions.

    i have visions
    of your hands on my spine
    of your lips on my neck
    the both of us refusing
    to let the other leave the bed
    i have visions
    of your mind reading my own
    of your eyes looking into places
    the ones i have never really shown
    to assemble these words i simply thought of you
    i guess i just…
    wanted you to know
    i have visions too

  • .see.

    all i wanted was to come into your life
    like a poem
    and make your heart beat quick
    with every word
    that escaped my lips
    with every touch
    that lingered on your skin
    and have you see me
    as someone you could no longer live without
    and have you see me
    as someone you wanted around
    and have you see me

  • .stone.

    i could tell that he wanted to mold me
    but he didn’t seem to know
    that i was less like clay
    and more like stone
    see it’s not that i am hard
    or that i am cold
    but i know who i am
    i won’t just do as i’m told

  • .searching.

    i like to watch your fingertips
    as they search my skin
    i’m not sure
    what it is you’re looking for
    but god
    i hope you find it