.guilt.

a fraction of a second
is already enough
is already too much
i wish the thoughts
would run away
as i attempt to drive them out
but they don’t
they stay
and i’m supposed to take comfort
in the fact
that your suffering is complete
that you always loved me
that i have your eyes
but now your work…
is mine

.feeling.

there’s this feeling i get
when i look at the sun
or the moon
the mountains across the lake
the light on your face
there’s this feeling i get
when i share something about myself
or know that i am understood
accomplish something great
hear you say my name
each moment is different
yet somehow
the same
i have a lot of feelings
because i feel everything

.good. x .truth.

it’s so beautiful when
you’re in front of someone and you think
i’m in front of you and i’m myself
we are here
we are together
we are oK
i never want to keep my mind from your view
but this time it’s about you and i’m scared so
i do
i lie
as i say
yeah…
good to see you too
because what i’m trying to convey
is that it’s more than good
to tell you the truth
it’s everything

.visions.

i have visions
of your hands on my spine
of your lips on my neck
the both of us refusing
to let the other leave the bed
i have visions
of your mind reading my own
of your eyes looking into places
the ones i have never really shown
to assemble these words i simply thought of you
i guess i just…
wanted you to know
i have visions too

.see.

all i wanted was to come into your life
like a poem
and make your heart beat quick
with every word
that escaped my lips
with every touch
that lingered on your skin
and have you see me
as someone you could no longer live without
and have you see me
as someone you wanted around
and have you see me

hello world

Hello there, everyone.  I realize this post is likely not going to be seen by anyone, let alone ‘everyone’.  This is quite alright with me.  It’s all more for myself right now.  I need a place to lay things out, to remember.  I decided to start this blog so that anyone out there who wanders by can get to know me.  I’m not too sure what I’m looking to get out of this; I guess I’m just hoping to put myself out there, drag back down to earth a few thoughts from the storms in my head, and have those thoughts resonate with others.  

In this initial post, I would like to give you a little summary of who I am.  It seems a nearly impossible feat at times, but I think it may hopefully help you stick around in my little world.  Firstly, and most importantly, I am a lover.  I love everything, unless I decide that I hate it.  I love wholly and deeply and I get along best with those who do the same.  One of the things I love most is music.  It lifts me up when I am feeling down, and lets me sink into it when I need a place to land.  The people that make the music that flows through me each day are usually just as messed up as I am, and unsurprisingly, I love that too.  I believe that my purpose in this life is to spread joy, and love, and positivity.  I believe I am meant to create a safe space for others to express themselves and to love as passionately as I do.  I want to help others realize what is out there for them and what they can do with the life they are given. As humans, we have become distracted by many things, often beautiful and exciting things, but because they are ultimately distractions, we have work to do if we are going to decide to travel down the path of a good life, a meaningful life, a happy life.  

Many of my posts on this blog will likely be about moments in my day where I feel free and content, sprinkled with moments that are a little less full of light.  If you happen to stumble into my world, I hope that you will decide to stay.  If anything that you have read strikes a match within you or makes you feel like you are floating, then please reach out to me so that I know I’m not alone, and so that I can reassure you of the same.