.intention.

our lives are not dependent on chance
they are due to prior circumstance 
and each day a choice is presented
to surrender, to falter
or to rise up, to conquer 
the second requires intention
and purpose by extension 
it requires being mindful 
and getting in the flow 
like the waxing crescent moon,
we must continuously yearn to grow 
soon we will decide 
why we are here 
to live a life of passion?
to live a life of fear?
each day is a chance 
to change our circumstance 
may we all act now

.renew.

i’ve seen leaves grow 
from bare bones 
as the mind reawakens 
i don’t feel so alone 
the days are longer
flowers bloom 
bending towards the light
no longer entombed 
the sun, it always shines
even with the clouds
do not underestimate the daylight
all that you are is allowed

friday, july 12

I’ve been lacking inspiration as of late.  I consume information and ideas from the adults and children that I work with, from the shows I’m watching, from the social media platforms that I visit.  I’m overwhelmed and it’s affecting my wellbeing.  At the beginning of the month, my sister and I moved into a new apartment.  I love it here and it’s everything I’ve been wanting for a long time.  But for many reasons, some of which I can pinpoint and others I cannot, it’s not enough.  Having more space, having things to own, these do not bring you happiness.  They do not bring contentment or excitement or peace of mind.  With moving has come a lot of resurfaced anxiety.  I am slowly settling in and figuring out what I want to add to each day in order to relax and get to a good headspace again.  The summer is such a beautiful season, and I am missing a lot of it to sit inside and find ways to distract myself.  This post serves as a reminder to myself to get out there and enjoy my life.  It can be easy to forget that you only get one.  I will never be this young again.  I want to seize every opportunity to be alive.  I plan to recenter and rebuild a sense of wonderment inside.  I will be inspired again.