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  • .intention.

    our lives are not dependent on chance
    they are due to prior circumstance 
    and each day a choice is presented
    to surrender, to falter
    or to rise up, to conquer 
    the second requires intention
    and purpose by extension 
    it requires being mindful 
    and getting in the flow 
    like the waxing crescent moon,
    we must continuously yearn to grow 
    soon we will decide 
    why we are here 
    to live a life of passion?
    to live a life of fear?
    each day is a chance 
    to change our circumstance 
    may we all act now

  • .coffee.

    he said i looked at him
    like he was my only one 
    i looked at him
    like he was someone 
    maybe no one has before

  • .renew.

    i’ve seen leaves grow 
    from bare bones 
    as the mind reawakens 
    i don’t feel so alone 
    the days are longer
    flowers bloom 
    bending towards the light
    no longer entombed 
    the sun, it always shines
    even with the clouds
    do not underestimate the daylight
    all that you are is allowed

  • .happiness.

    yellows and golds 
    were never my favorite 
    my world 
    it was silver and gray 
    and black 
    now there is more light 
    and yellows dance around me
    they pick me up 
    when i am sad 
    though those shades
    linger on rainy days 
    it is gold that is found
    at the end of a rainbow 
    when the clouds shy away

  • .seasons.

    again i fall 
    for the image
    the mind creates 
    for the friend
    the heart relates 
    for the stranger 
    the soul mistakes 
    i fall

  • .enveloped.

    caught up in his waves
    an ocean, keeping me sane
    he makes me want to save myself from drowning
    he makes me want to swim
    and when i choose to sink
    it will be into every part of him

  • .acceptance.

    it’s getting easier
    yet on the floor
    at the end of the bed
    i find myself still
    hugging my knees
    asking for a different reality

    the truth is
    i will not get a response
    to all the things
    i wanted to say
    and though they come out
    when i listen to songs
    i’m sure you would have loved
    i don’t hear a sound

    i never thought of you as malicious
    but selfish is a word that i have used
    as action after action
    spoke louder
    than the voice
    on the other end of the line
    you were never there (and to be honest, that’s fine)
    you are always with me now

  • .fear.

    i do not fear you falling
    with another
    into bed
    i fear you falling
    with another
    into love

  • .lovely.

    go on, be free
    find yourself
    but then please come back
    find me
    i will try to wait here
    but you should know
    that if i stray
    it’s not because i saw something
    more beautiful
    followed it out
    lost my way
    it will be because i needed a place
    and i found a stranger
    that made me feel safe
    if you do return
    and i still am standing here
    remember that in life
    there is no guarantee
    but it could be lovely
    you and me

  • .hope.

    i breathe in
    something fills my lungs
    it feels like air
    but it’s lighter
    and it dances
    this is hope