again i fall
for the image
the mind creates
for the friend
the heart relates
for the stranger
the soul mistakes
i fall
love
.enveloped.
caught up in his waves
an ocean, keeping me sane
he makes me want to save myself from drowning
he makes me want to swim
and when i choose to sink
it will be into every part of him
.acceptance.
it’s getting easier
yet on the floor
at the end of the bed
i find myself still
hugging my knees
asking for a different reality
the truth is
i will not get a response
to all the things
i wanted to say
and though they come out
when i listen to songs
i’m sure you would have loved
i don’t hear a sound
i never thought of you as malicious
but selfish is a word that i have used
as action after action
spoke louder
than the voice
on the other end of the line
you were never there (and to be honest, that’s fine)
you are always with me now
.lovely.
go on, be free
find yourself
but then please come back
find me
i will try to wait here
but you should know
that if i stray
it’s not because i saw something
more beautiful
followed it out
lost my way
it will be because i needed a place
and i found a stranger
that made me feel safe
if you do return
and i still am standing here
remember that in life
there is no guarantee
but it could be lovely
you and me
.love.
you have seen the way
i love all things
admire
their truth and their fight
adore
their colors and their light
so you know that when
i say it to you
there is nothing more true
i love you
.good. x .truth.
it’s so beautiful when
you’re in front of someone and you think
i’m in front of you and i’m myself
we are here
we are together
we are oK
i never want to keep my mind from your view
but this time it’s about you and i’m scared so
i do
i lie
as i say
yeah…
good to see you too
because what i’m trying to convey
is that it’s more than good
to tell you the truth
it’s everything
.good. x .lie.
it’s so beautiful when
you’re in front of me
i’m in front of you
we listen
we laugh
we love
i never want to leave
but as always
i do
we lie
as we say
good to see you again
yeah…
good to see you too
.visions.
i have visions
of your hands on my spine
of your lips on my neck
the both of us refusing
to let the other leave the bed
i have visions
of your mind reading my own
of your eyes looking into places
the ones i have never really shown
to assemble these words i simply thought of you
i guess i just…
wanted you to know
i have visions too
.see.
all i wanted was to come into your life
like a poem
and make your heart beat quick
with every word
that escaped my lips
with every touch
that lingered on your skin
and have you see me
as someone you could no longer live without
and have you see me
as someone you wanted around
and have you see me
.searching.
i like to watch your fingertips
as they search my skin
i’m not sure
what it is you’re looking for
but god
i hope you find it
ilekso 