It’s been a few days since I shared my first post, along with the poems that I have written thus far. In the first 24 hours, I had about 30 visitors and over 100 views, which was way more than I anticipated. I thought maybe one or two would stumble onto my site from the tags on my poems and that I would have a few more views from friends that I chose to share this creation with. I am so excited to begin this journey and I am challenging myself to post once a day. Knowing myself, I will likely fail this challenge almost immediately, but I would like to share my thoughts regularly in order to keep track of things and have something to reflect on in the future. I would like to officially welcome you to my world, and thank you for taking the time read any words that are shared here.
Author: ilekso
.guilt.
a fraction of a second
is already enough
is already too much
i wish the thoughts
would run away
as i attempt to drive them out
but they don’t
they stay
and i’m supposed to take comfort
in the fact
that your suffering is complete
that you always loved me
that i have your eyes
but now your work…
is mine
.love.
you have seen the way
i love all things
admire
their truth and their fight
adore
their colors and their light
so you know that when
i say it to you
there is nothing more true
i love you
.feeling.
there’s this feeling i get
when i look at the sun
or the moon
the mountains across the lake
the light on your face
there’s this feeling i get
when i share something about myself
or know that i am understood
accomplish something great
hear you say my name
each moment is different
yet somehow
the same
i have a lot of feelings
because i feel everything
.good. x .truth.
it’s so beautiful when
you’re in front of someone and you think
i’m in front of you and i’m myself
we are here
we are together
we are oK
i never want to keep my mind from your view
but this time it’s about you and i’m scared so
i do
i lie
as i say
yeah…
good to see you too
because what i’m trying to convey
is that it’s more than good
to tell you the truth
it’s everything
.good. x .lie.
it’s so beautiful when
you’re in front of me
i’m in front of you
we listen
we laugh
we love
i never want to leave
but as always
i do
we lie
as we say
good to see you again
yeah…
good to see you too
.visions.
i have visions
of your hands on my spine
of your lips on my neck
the both of us refusing
to let the other leave the bed
i have visions
of your mind reading my own
of your eyes looking into places
the ones i have never really shown
to assemble these words i simply thought of you
i guess i just…
wanted you to know
i have visions too
.see.
all i wanted was to come into your life
like a poem
and make your heart beat quick
with every word
that escaped my lips
with every touch
that lingered on your skin
and have you see me
as someone you could no longer live without
and have you see me
as someone you wanted around
and have you see me
.stone.
i could tell that he wanted to mold me
but he didn’t seem to know
that i was less like clay
and more like stone
see it’s not that i am hard
or that i am cold
but i know who i am
i won’t just do as i’m told
.searching.
i like to watch your fingertips
as they search my skin
i’m not sure
what it is you’re looking for
but god
i hope you find it
ilekso 