I’ve decided to make my blog posts a little bit more like journal entries, without a whole lot of purpose, aside from keeping my thoughts in one place. I’m currently listening to Lovely Little Lonely by The Maine, on vinyl. It’s such a damn good album. If you’re reading this, go listen to it. I’m thinking about how a lot of things are up in the air for me, once again, but I’m trying to stay focused and control the little things in my daily life. I am getting myself back on track in terms of diet and exercise, and it feels great so far. Usually, when I’m feeling a lack of control, I revert to my old habits of binge watching shows and doing anything I can to distract myself from my current reality. I still love watching shows (How To Get Away With Murder intrigues me) but I’m doing so in a manner that is more monitored. I am paying attention to everything around me as much as I can, and trying to become more present. I have put a focus on this in the past, but I’m hoping to really keep it going this time. I’m determined to get where I want to be, and am excited to embrace the journey. I’m lucky to be alive. This may all end up being meaningless in the end, but that doesn’t mean we can’t create meaningful experiences and relationships while we’re here.